current mood : angry to myself
Why I can't push myself harder and harder?
Why I wasn't born with a strong-will to improve myself?
Thought I failed to be a real "human". I can't do anything to marked myself in this world. The worst thing is, even though I'm almost 21 now, I haven't make my parents proud of me.
But strangely, that thing doesn't make me push myself harder, push me to go the extra miles.
What was I thinking? I should pull my brain off my knee!
Idiot. Pathetic. Stupid. Stupider than Stupid. Stupidest!
