Thursday, October 30, 2008

anger management

Sometimes, our anger and depression are caused by very real and inescapable problems in our lives. Not all anger is misplaced, and often it's a healthy, natural response to these difficulties. There is also a cultural belief that every problem has a solution, and it adds to our depression to find out that this isn't always the case. The best attitude to bring to such a situation, then, is not to focus on finding the solution, but rather on how you handle and face the problem.

anger & depression

Have you ever feel that you're the dumbest, stupidest person on earth?
I did some terrible mistakes most of my life, feel like I can do nothing right.. I always wrong. Although I always tell everyone my slogan " absolutely no regrets ". But actually, there are several things that I wish I didn't do. I wish I can study more, I wish I exercise more, I wish I'm not a forgetful girl and can remember every single thing that ever happened in my life, I wish I wish I wish.. Many things I've missed in my whole life. I've messed it up and now I regret it. FFS, please forget those trashy feeling!!!

back to reality..........

I've two new best-friends right now. It called "Anger" and "Depression".
This "anger" and "depression" always track me down nowadays. Especially when I near my deadline, whether it's essay or Pre-Order on my OL shop. It's just... Frustrating.
Sometimes I thought, can I do this alone? But than my closest friend rose up my spirits, even deep down inside of me force me to do that. And then I know everything gonna be fine.... Although it's not. OMG, I feel so stressed!!! :(
I wonder what will happen with me in the next 6 months.

Okay, I will make a short list about what should I achieve 6 months from now.
  • GRADUATE! (it's a must!)
  • Find a job! (should I?)
  • Expanding my OL shop!
  • This is a short term plan: "go to gym at least 3 times a week and cut off those flabby thigh! Ewww.. Hate them! Run a little bit longer in my treadmill and biking as often as I can, even though with my Dad's friends. (Cos none of my friends love biking)" We'll see what happen with my thigh.
  • Yoga and pilates and meditation (guess I need that?). (always want to do that, but unfortunately don't have enough time and money. Cos it's so so so expensive.. But who knows I can afford that? As long as I intend to.
  • Be a half vegetarian (e.g: Vegetarian from Mon-Fri, and Sat-Sun are my free day!) How's that even possible, while my boyfriend always teases me with "Ayam Penyet". LOL.
  • Loses 5 more kilos. Anyone agree?
  • Control my damn new bestfriends (remember the "anger" and "depression"?). They come upon me all silent and they flank me, it's like Anger on my left and Depression on my right.
  • Sleep well everyday. (e.g: at least 6 hours a day)
  • Go to church?
  • what else? I'll add this list up as soon as I have thoughts.
Just, wish me luck OK.

PS: Dear "anger" and "depression" . Please GO AWAY from my mind :(

Thursday, October 23, 2008



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Dream Maker Foundation International Fashion Showcase

Dream Maker Foundation (DMF), Inc in collaboration with Essex County Freeholder, Donald M. Payne Jr., and Union Chapel Community Development Corporation will be hosting this First Annual Fund-raiser on Sunday, November 30 at Symphony Hall, 1030 Broad Street, Newark, NJ. Doors open: 2:30pm, Showtime: 3:30pm. Tickets: $30.00 General Admission, $75.00 VIP including wine & refreshments.

“I believe that DMF can help alleviate the economic hardships in developing countries, such as Liberia, by offering small business loans,” stated Michael Gray, Founder. “As Founder, I faced the same heavy challenges and hardships during my childhood in war-torn, poverty stricken Liberia, Africa. This was the impetus behind my creation of DMF. I plan to use DMF as a platform to effect global and local change at a grassroots level. As a survivor of tragic civil war, and having been blessed with the opportunity to have immigrated to the United States, I have managed to excel as a professional in the city of Newark,” Gray added.

Musical vibrations from DJ Nickiee, Princess of Techniques. Special Celebrity Guests!

WHAT: International Fashion Modeling Showcase Benefit held in conjunction with World AIDS Day. The proceeds from this event will be used to support disadvantaged students in Newark, NJ and Liberia, West Africa.

WHO: Dream Maker Foundation (DMF), Inc in collaboration with Essex County Freeholder, Donald M. Payne Jr., and Union Chapel Development Corporation.

WHEN: Sunday, November 30, 2008, Doors open: 2:30pm. Show begins: 3:30pm.

WHERE: Symphony Hall, 1020 Broad Street, Newark, New Jersey 07102

CONTACT: Information and Tickets contact Michael Gray at 877.533.6363 or visit Media Requests contact Tafia L. Allah-Pringle, Publicist at

Dream Maker Foundation (DMF)
DMF is a philanthropic organization established in 2006 to encourage fashion modeling industry. Its mission is to increase educational access, promote entrepreneurship, and to provide economic assistance by way of scholarships to students and micro-lending to small businesses in impoverished and underdeveloped regions in local urban areas and in West Africa. Having seen first-hand the devastating effects of inadequate education and poor economic infrastructures, Founder Michael Gray has an unwavering commitment to support and encourage the poor and marginalized within local and foreign communities

DMF is poised to be one of the leading organizations to provide effective grass-roots solutions that will impact the lives of many.

PRLog (Press Release) – Oct 22, 2008 – Dream Maker Foundation (DMF) announce their Worlds AIDS Day Pre-Celebration with their First Annual International Fashion Showcase featuring Couture Fashion from Around the World, Performances, Celebrity Guests and appearances by Miss Latina NJ and Miss Teen Latina United States. Models courtesy of Ariagna Perello Model Management. Link :-

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

love you

current mood: ?!#@~^&*

My Dad's best friend died yesterday on age 67.
I couldn't help but think, so what's the meaning of life? People was born, live to die someday.
I just realized, once again, that life is nothing bout fame and fortune. No matter how rich you are when you live in this world, but what will you bring the day He take you home? Nothing. Will He care about your money or your power? I guess not. What He care about is, your behavior when you live, and how you treat people.
Sometimes people are so selfish, greed, and sacrifice others for their own importance.
Girls become materialistic. Nowadays, girls don't attracted man in physical, but how thick his wallet is :) Wow, that's the fact.

One day I met this man, about 6 years ago, and one of my girlfriend asked, "What car does he own? What business?". From those conversation, I know that she's not a REAL friend, she didn't care about my happiness, all she care about was money.
But girl, money doesn't guarantee happiness in life. The proof is, her relationship with her SUPER rich boyfriend only last in 3 months! While I'm still counting to my 6th years.

I'm so proud with my relationship cos there's no gap between us, I can become myself 100% so does he. There's no drama going on our relationship. Just perfect :)
When I sat with him on one dreamy night, he asked me about what if one of us leave this world? If he can make petition to God, he wants we'll die together. So no one feel the sadness of losing someone they really love. It brought me to tears. I don't know that his love for me as deep as that. Maybe he doesn't have a Range Rover, or thousand acres home, but one thing that other men don't have is his honesty, he teaches me many things about life, part of life that I never knew till I met him, he always told me to not look what's above you, but look what's below you. Then I feel blessed everyday.

All good things seem to have an end, so don't waste your time with a person you're not really love. Believe me, it's hurting. What's the point from become a million dollar wife whom can buy everything, if you can't being yourself and your mind tortured? Money can't buy happiness baby. Am I envy her? Absolutely not. The world we live in is a physical world. And I don't want to get in those circumstances.

I wanna spend my rest of my life with you

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Jennifer Aniston being wooed by ex John Mayer's soppy texts

Two months after splitting up, could it be a case of Friends Reunited for Jennifer Aniston and John Mayer?

Well, it will be if the singer has his way.

After dumping the Friends actress and model eight weeks ago, John has been trying desperately to win her back, going all out... with a series of soppy texts.

Last of the great romantics, eh John?
The Gravity star has told pals he is determined to woo Jen and has promised to change his slovenly ways.

As well as cutting back on his smoking and drinking, he’s also penned a heartfelt song to the gorgeous star.

"John and Jennifer had a pretty acrimonious break-up," says a source close to the singer.

"For a while Jen cut off all ties and refused to speak to him. But over the past few weeks, they’ve both realised how good they were together and how much they mean to one another.

"John initially called things off because he didn’t feel ready for commitment.

"But after considerable time apart, his priorities have changed and he wants to make a go of things.

"Determined to show he’s a changed man, John has cut right back down on his drinking and has pledged to quit smoking rollies - two things that really annoyed Jennifer.
"He has even written a song about their time together and played it to Jennifer who, naturally, was incredibly touched.

"It’s still early days though and John is by no means out of the doghouse. He still has some serious grovelling and making up to do.

"But so far things are going well, and both parties are hopeful of a long-term reconciliation."

The couple, who dated for five months, enjoyed a ‘trial’ date last week at Sunset Towers in LA.

John also invited Jennifer to be his guest of honour at his 31st birthday recently.

We first revealed the couple’s split in August which was later confirmed by the US singer himself.

During an impromptu rant to reporters outside his New York gym, gallant John claimed he ended things because he didn’t "want to waste [Jennifer’s} time."


But this time around, John has promised to keep schtum about their romance - and never to publicly embarrass her again.

Only time will tell...

News Sources:- - Celebs

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


current mood: sad sad sad

Things are getting worse on Ritchie's household :( Madonna and her husband will end their marriage after almost eight years!

OMG!! Why did it go wrong, M?

I hate divorces. 

My heart goes for their three children, Lola, Rocco, and little David. 

Monday, October 13, 2008

Fashion biopics big in Hollywood

A forthcoming slew of fashion model related films are due to hit Hollywood shortly making this a very interesting time for anyone following the fashion and modelling industry.

Coco Chanel is being brought to the big screen in a number of different versions of her life, the first of which was filmed on US television earlier this summer and starred Shirley MacLaine as Coco Chanel.

The film was not very well received with a reviewers branding it "dull and embarassing." Audrey Tatou is set to play Chanel in the second biopic of the year, and rumous abound that a third version is in the making with Demi Moore starring as Chanel.

As has been previously announced on UK Model Agenceis Vivienne Westwood is also about to be portrayed by Kate Winslet in a forthcoming Hollywood production, and yet more rumours insist a film is in production about Kate Moss.

We will keep you updated as we hear more.

Posted on Monday, 06 October 2008 02:18PM by Editor:- UK Model Agencies

Friday, October 10, 2008

Thursday, October 9, 2008

finding my God

There was a man showed me a sketch he'd drown once during his meditation. It was an androgynous human figure, standing up, hands clasped in prayer. But this figure had four legs, and no head. Where the head should have been, there was only a wild foliage of ferns and flowers. There was a small, smiling face drawn over the heart.

He said to me, "To find the balance you want, this is what you must become. You must keep your feet grounded so firmly on the earth that it's like you have four legs, instead of two. That way, you can stay in the world. But you must stop looking at the world through your head. You must look through your heart, instead. That way, you will know God."

Monday, October 6, 2008


Current mood: over-tired, over-excited, over-LOADED!!

Just got back from HOLIDAY!!!!
I just blessed that I still can spend my holiday being surrounded with people I love the most.
Well, my holiday was as great as usual. I'm so grateful that I still been able to travel :) although this is my #... visit to Bali, but this place is wonderful. You always want to back there for more. To double the experiences, the fun, the trip to ancient places and temples, eat delicious Balinese food such as duck and seafood :p even tanned your skin and cash out your money in every store that exist! LOL.
Nuff story about Bali, cos I'm sure everyone will know what I'd been doing there :)
The greatest thing was, my family. I really really, I mean REALLY love them. The only thing you can depend on is your family. The best thing to hold onto life is each other.
6 days in Bali.
How I miss my boyfriend. I thought last week was the longest time we didn't meet. We always see each other almost everyday :) I can't imagine what if I'm in LDR ( Long-Distance Relationship ). Never work for me. Never want to try it. Just, No. Never ever imagine that, even in my wildest dream.
Two thumbs up for them who can work the LDR!!!